13 May 2010

Remember when...

Do you remember when I talked about a guy from my past coming back, and how everything was crazy for me? And how much I hurt after we initially broke up and never really got over it, after all these years? Well, I was talking to Karyn about it about a month ago, and I found out some things that I wish I found out when it actually happened. I basically found out that he wasn't "true" to me when we were dating, and he wasn't just flirting. I just wish that I found this out sooner, because I feel like it would've helped me to get over him a long time ago instead of having him linger. I basically thought it was because of me that he broke it off and that something was wrong w/ me. Knowing this makes me realize that he was just a jerk, using me for, I don't know what. However, Karyn said that when she tried to tell me, I wasn't listening. I'm sorry. I'm hard headed. Just sit me down and tell me point blank, if it happens again. And I hope it DOESN'T happen again.

After finding this out, I haven't thought about him as much as I usually do. Not that I sit around looking for a reason to think about him and reminisce. It's just that we had so many memories that things some time trigger memories of him. I also don't feel bad, anymore, about the drama in his life. I've been able to cut off more strings that has kept me attached to him. I know that there are a few more left, but I doubt those will ever give way. At least now there aren't as many as before. I'm happy to say that I am "dangling by a thread."

I've decided to steal Karyn's idea, for the day, of having a "song of the day." She also suggested this song. Be strong, be happy, and find the joy in your life!

"Give You Hell"
by The All-American Rejects

I wake up every evenin' with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place.
And you still probably workin' at a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence, love?
And where's that shiny car?
And did it ever get you far?
You never seemed so tense, love
I've never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lyin'


If you find a man that's worth damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell
I hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Yeah, where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on

Truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lyin'


If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell


When you hear this song and sing along, we'll you'll never tell
And you're not a fool, I'm just as well, hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along, I hope that it puts your through hell

12 May 2010


I don't know why everyone, including me, feels they need to apologize for not being more consistent in their blogging. I doubt that anyone is hanging onto my every blog and are completely devastated when there isn't anything new to read for weeks on end. If they is... well, it's your lucky day! :)

As you know I moved in with Hector and Carrie the beginning of March. Then about two months later, we moved to Lehi (yep, I moved again, bleh). The thing I hate about moving is the packing. You think that you don't have THAT much stuff, but as you are packing your life away, you are rudely awakened by the fact that you have a TON of crap and aren't sure how it all happened so fast. I figured I could pack everything, other than my clothes, in 3- somewhat- big boxes. Much to my amazement, that was NOT possible. Luckily, Carrie guys had extra containers to use for packing. I packed those 3 boxes and another 3 containers, and let's not forget my two suitcases and about 5 bags of clothes left on their hangers (think dry cleaning pick up). I know! Lots of stuff!

Two weekends ago we moved into the new place. We used the biggest truck from U-Haul, I believe it's 27 feet? We had a ton of people helping us out and they were all so awesome! We got everything done so fast! I've moved A LOT over the last 24 years, but I have never moved or have been moved with so many people. We had at least 15 people there moving everything into the truck. If you can't tell, I was really shocked at how many people came and how fast we got things done. Thanks everyone! :) We are pretty much all moved in. The only left to do is set up the office and finish putting up decorations: paintings and such.

With all this moving, I am happy that I won't be moving for a while. How I wish that were true. I'm going home to Hawaii in a week and I'm going to help my parents move. They've been in the same place for 7 years. That seems to be the longest time our family stays anywhere. Not on purpose, it just happens that way. Needless to say, there is a lot of stuff. I am not excited to pack it all and move it, again. I need to weed through my junk and bring things back with me, as well as weed through the rest of my family's junk, to down-size everything. We're still not sure where they're going just yet, but I figure the more we get rid of the easier it'll be to move.

I think I should become a professional mover. It's easy moving other people's stuff as opposed to your own stuff. You can pack quickly when it's not your own stuff, but when you are packing away your life, for the umpteenth time, you go through things and start reminiscing. Which then means your packing time becomes longer than necessary. Oh, the joys of change.

That's enough ranting for now... Be strong, be happy, and find the joy in your life!