Just Around the River Bend

“Change is good. Change is part of the Kingdom.” My bishop said, something like this, on Sunday. THIS was the answer to my prayer. Virginia, here I come!

To my St. George peeps (basically just Karyn since she’s pretty much the only person who ever reads my blog) I’m sorry I’m not gonna be livin’ it up w/ you all. Apparently the Lord has other things in store for me. I wish I could come hang out before I leave but I don’t have the time or money. L

Thank you to EVERYONE who has supported me in my decisions. I appreciate everything that you all have done for me! You’re the best!

Today’s song is one that’s from the Broadway musical “Rent.” I watched the movie for the first time last year and I liked it a lot more than I thought. I totally LOVE the songs and the actors in the movie. This version was done on Glee a little bit ago. I love that Mercedes and Rachel were having a diva-off to this song. J Definitely a fun song! It makes me happy and wish that I had pipes like these ladies. One day. Well my lovelies, be strong, be happy, and find the joy in your life!

Take Me or Leave Me – Glee Cast

Every single day

I walk down the street

I hear people say, "Baby's so sweet"

Ever since puberty everybody stares at me

Boys, girls I can’t help it baby

So be kind and don’t lose your mind
Just remember that I’m your baby

Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me
Take me baby or leave me

A tiger in a cage
Can never see the sun
This diva needs her stage baby, let’s have fun!

You are the one I choose
Folks would kill to fill your shoes
You love the limelight too, now baby

So be mine and don’t waste my time
Cryin’ “Oh Honey bear, are you still my, my, my baby?”

Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
And if you give a damn
Take me baby or leave me

No way, can I be what I’m not
But hey, don’t you want your girl hot?
Don’t fight, don’t lose your head
‘Cause every night, who’s in your bed?

Who, who’s in your bed?
Kiss, Pookie

That’s it! The straw that breaks my back

I quit, unless you take it back
Women, what is it about them?
Can’t live with them or without them!

Take me for what I am
Who I was meant to be
(Who I was meant to be)
And if you give a damn
(And if you give a damn ya better)
Take me baby or leave me
(Oh take me baby, take me or leave me)
Take me baby
Or leave me

Guess I’m leaving
I’m gone!

Choices

Have you ever wondered which way to go when a choice is placed before you? Ha, I feel like that is part of a song but I can’t figure out what one. It wasn’t intentional to be quoting a song, or anything else for that matter.

It seems to me that whenever I FINALLY make a decision, a whole bunch of other choices pop-up. And they’re usually pretty awesome ones, too! I hate it because, if you don’t already know this, I’m really indecisive. My picture is next to the word in the dictionary. That and gullible. Hmm. Maybe I shouldn’t have mentioned that last one. But whatever. If you’re reading this, you already knew that.

My last post talked about how I was excited to be moving to St. George. Well, within the last few days, something else has come up. And it’s a pretty good something else, too. Logically speaking, it would be the better choice. Generally speaking, I have no idea what I’m going to do. I know that it’s really a matter that I need to take up with Heavenly Father, and that’s totally what I’m going to do. But I just hate having to make so many decisions. Well, rather I hate having so many options. Sometimes I just wish you only had to choose between two things and that’s it. Every time you had to make a decision. Instead of an infinite amount of options.

Any who. Today’s song is from Ms. Britney Spears. The funny thing about her is that I didn’t like her during her first two albums. I’m not sure why. I was totally a teeny-bopper back then. Maybe it was because I liked, and still like, Christina more. Anyway, I didn’t like her but I liked her songs. Nowadays, I like her. And her songs. I’m so happy that she’s made a good comeback. I’m not sure how I feel about her newest album yet but I loved Circus. This song is off of her third album, Britney. You know, this album has been quite the inspiration for me. When it first came out I had recently graduated from high school and I wanted to be an adult but was still looked at as a child. It’s interesting how her songs are still inspirational and related ten years later. Holy cow! :O Anyways, I’m not saying that I’ve been overprotected but just the feel of the song, overall, is what I feel a lot. Wow. This post has been pretty personal, and rant-worthy. Anyways, be strong, be happy, and find the joy in your life!

Overprotected- Britney Spears

[Spoken:]
I need time (time)
Love (love)
Joy (joy)
I need space
I need me
(Action!)

Say hello to the girl that I am!
You're gonna have to see through my perspective
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am
And I don't wanna be so damn protected
There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say
What a girl is to do
God, I need some answers

What am I to do with my life
(You will find it out don't worry)
How Am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I tell 'em what I like
What I want
What I don't
But every time I do I stand corrected
Things that I've been told
I can't believe what I hear about the world, I realize
I'm Overprotected

There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say
What a girl is to do
God I need some answers

What am I to do with my life
(You will find it out don't worry)
How Am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I need… time (love)
I need… space
(This is it, this is it)

I don't need nobody telling me just what I wanna
What I what what what I'm gonna
Do about my destiny
I Say No, No
Nobody's telling me just what what what I wanna do, do
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be
Someone else but me

(Action!)

What am I to do with my life
(You will find it out don't worry)
How Am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I don't need nobody telling me just what I wanna
What I what what what I'm gonna
Do about my destiny
I Say No, No
Nobody's telling me just what I wanna do, do
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be
Someone else but me

What am I to do with my life
(You will find it out don't worry)
How Am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

Over Due

Holy cow! It has been FOREVER since my last blog. L Sorry guys!

I just realized that on my last post I opened by calling you all “clubbies.” Haha! I meant to say “Bloggies.” My bad! Moving on.

Not too much going on since my last post. Still doing school. Still a nanny. Still Hawaiian. J Our branch did just turn into a ward. We combined w/ another singles ward and now we are all one HUGE family! Holy cow! Yesterday in RS we had at least 100 sisters! Well, Idk exactly but had to be. We were so big that we had to move from the RS room to the over flow/cultural hall. I’m excited though. Lots of new people. Especially boys! J

I am also moving to St. George! I’m finally taking the leap. It’s been in the making for the last six months. I still don’t have a job set up yet but I still have a month before I get down there. Pray for me guys! I am also in the market for a moped/scooter. Hopefully I’ll get one soon so I can learn how to ride it and what not before I get down to St. George.

Oh, and the biggest excitement that has recently happened in my life, drum roll please… I am debt free!! Credit card debt free that is. But it still counts!! I am so happy to finally have that monkey off my back. I still have student loans to pay back but luckily I still have time before I have to start paying them back. *phew*

Today’s song is from Adele. She is so awesome! I love the way she sings and sounds. *sigh* so amazing! J I never knew what all the words were until now. It’s an even better song than I thought. Haha! I guess that’s all for now, Bloggies. I hope this new month is going well and brings lots of success and happiness! Be strong, be happy, and find the joy in your life!

Rolling in the Deep- Adele

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your s*** bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.

Work Out or Rock Out?

Clubbies!!

I got my new phone today! Woo-hoo! I ordered it almost two weeks ago and was going crazy waiting for it. It’s a Motorola Flipside! My first smartphone. Woo!

It’s basically an iPhone w/ a Qwerty keyboard. I’m still trying to figure it all out since I’ve had it all of 4 hours now. J There’s so much extra stuff, I don’t know what to do w/ myself. I feel like I should be a much busier person to fully utilize it.

Quick update. I haven’t been working out. L I know right?! I did get the XBOX Kinect and am totally in love w/ it! It came w/ an Adventures game and I also got Dance Central. It is awesome!! J Man, it kicks my butt w/ all the dance moves though! Check out this video and you’ll see what I mean. I’ve totally danced this exact routine. I am definitely not a dancer but I do have a natural rhythm. J There is a workout mode to the game. It really just counts your calories burned. I plan to use this as my exercising. Workout DVDs aren’t motivating enough or really fun. Dancing is though! And you burn some mad calories doing it! J

Another little update. I’ve been on eHarmony for two months now. I’ve met a few guys and have been emailing. Nothing too serious as of yet but I’ll keep you informed. J I really like it though. I was on ldssingles too but nothing came of that. I still have one more month at my “special” price. We’ll see what happens when that time comes to see whether or not I will continue. There is one guy that I’ve been talking to for a couple weeks or so. He’s pretty cool. J You’ll just have to be patient and watch out for any updates.

Today’s song is a fun one. It comes to you from a fellow Hawaii-Native. J I recently bought his album and I love it! I already loved all of his singles that have been released but I really do love his entire album! He’s coming out here in May and I totally want to see him but Idk if I’ll have money since I’m going to two concerts in July! Holy cow! I hope that you all are well and havin’ fun! Until next time my lovelies… Be strong, be happy, and find the joy in your life!

The Lazy Song- Bruno Mars

Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything

Uh, I'm gonna kick my feet up and stare at the fan
Turn the TV on
Throw my hand in my pants
Nobody's gon’ tell me I can't, nah

I'll be lying on the couch just chillin in my snuggie
Click to MTV so they can teach me how to dougie
Cause in my castle I'm the freakin man

[CHORUS]
Oh Oh, yes I said it
I said it
I said it cause I can
Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything

Nothing at all
Ooh hoo ooh hoo
Hoo ooh ooh
Nothing at all
Ooh hoo ooh hoo
Hoo ooh ooh

Tomorrow I wake up, do some P90X
With a really nice girl have some really nice sex
And she's gonna scream out, "this is great" (Oh my ***
this is great)
I might mess around and get my college degree
I bet my old man will be so proud of me
I'm sorry pops you just have to wait

[CHORUS]

No I ain't gonna comb my hair
Cause I ain't going anywhere
No no no no no no no no nooo
I'll just strut in my birthday suit
And let everything hang loose
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahhh

Ohh Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything

Nothing at all
Ooh hoo ooh hoo
Hoo ooh ooh
Nothing at all
Ooh hoo ooh hoo
Hoo ooh ooh
Nothing at all

28 on 28

Happy birthday to me!!! J

Getting ready… (not for my bday but close enough)

I can’t believe that today is my 28^th birthday! It’s gone by so fast! I still feel like I’m 16. Well, more like 21. J

For the first time in my life, at least that I can remember, I had a BIRTHDAY WEEKEND!! It was amazing! And it’s not even over yet. Thursday night Karyn came over and stayed the weekend. She came up w/ Amy, our friend and her roommate. Friday we went to dinner at Tepanyaki in Provo, w/ Pohai and Emily. That was so fun! I got free ice cream and a song. The chef working at the table close to ours was totally workin’ it for Karyn. Good times! Then back to the Blue House for singing on PS3. I love karaoke sessions!

Saturday night we went to dinner, again, w/ Pohai, Emily, Amy, and her two sisters Jeanette and Katie. We went to Spark in Provo. It’s a restaurant and lounge. It’s cool because it has a high-end club/bar feel w/o the alcohol. They have cool drinks, too! AND, I got free frozen chocolate mousse. It was basically chocolate ice cream.

Sunday night I had dinner at the Blue House. Pohai made me “That’s the Ticket Chicken” and cheesy potatoes. Freaking delish!! And some friends from my old ward came over and we had good times!

Tonight, Julie made Chinese food and a double-layer chocolate cake. Totally delish, even if we ended up using cornmeal type flour by accident. I totally love it!

It kind of looks like a hat or the top of a volcano. Grandpa (Carrie’s dad) called it a coliseum. After dinner I had FHE w/ my branch group and I took a Bundt cake. Yep, I made my first Bundt. I always think of “My Big Fat Greek Wedding” when Bundt cakes come up. J We played games after the lesson and then had dessert and they sang to me. Aww!

What have I done in the past 28 years of life? I’ve lived in 5 different states, and gone to 8 different schools. Served a mission in San Bernardino, CA. I’ve been working on a degree in elementary education. I’ve been/am a full-time nanny. There’s more but it’s hard to think of everything from 28 years of experience. J

Thank you to my family and friends who have help make me the person I am today. Thank you to the newer friends I have made along the way. Thank you to everyone who’s been there through thick and thin. Thank you for making this birthday one of, if not, THE best birthdays ever! J

Today’s song is a fun one. FEM is super cool! J This one makes me feel good so I thought I’d share the goodness. I couldn’t decide what song to put up for my bday so I just went through my iTunes on shuffle until I found a rockin’ one. J Until next time… Be strong, be happy, and find the joy in your life!

Rocketeer- Far East Movement feat. Ryan Tedder

(Chorus) Here we go, come with me
There's a world out there that we should see
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer
Let's fly
Up, up here we go
Up, up here we go
Let's fly
Up, up here we go, go
Where we stop nobody knows, knows

Where we go we don't need roads, roads
Where we stop nobody knows, knows
To the stars if you really want it
Got, got a jetpack with your name on it
Above the clouds in the atmosphere, phere
Just say the words and we outta here, outta here
Hold my hand if you feeling scared, scared
We flying up, up outta here

Chorus

Baby, we can stay fly like a G6
Shop the streets of Tokyo, get you fly kicks
Girl you always on my mind, got my head up in the sky
And I'm never looking down feeling priceless, yeah
Where we at, only few have known
Go on the next level, Super Mario
I hope this works out, Cardio
Til' then let's fly, Geronimo

Here we go, come with me
There's a world out there that we should see
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer

Nah, I never been in space before
But I never seen a face like yours
You make me feel like I could touch the planets
You want the moon, girl watch me grab it
See I ain't never seen the stars this close
You got me struck by the way you glow
I'm like, oh, oh, oh, oh
I'm like, oh, oh, oh, oh

Chorus

I WILL

Bloggies!!

Wow! It has been a while, yet again, since I’ve blogged. Instead of apologizing, I’m just gonna get right into it. J

According to my last blog, I should have reached my goal by now. In all honesty, I have not. If I kept to my planned regimen it would be all good and I’d be working on a new goal. Instead, like my blogging, I was not consistent. Last week, I only went walking, with a little bit of jogging. Sadly, I missed a few days. This week I plan to be better. No, this week I WILL DO better. I will do my DVD and walk/jog.

This weekend is going to be so awesome! Karyn and Amy are coming up from San Jorge and I cannot wait!!! I have been waiting for this week since Karyn first told me she was coming up, over a month ago. Even though it’s been almost three months since I last saw them, it has been too long! Well, I saw Amy just before Christmas but only for like 2 minutes. So that doesn’t count. Party over here!! I hope you are ready girls! J Idk what we’re gonna do but whatever it is, we gon’ have fun! Mmhmm! (Juju lips and all)

Today’s song is a blast from the past. I was watching a music video on YouTube the other day and one of the linked videos was from the group Five. Do you remember them? I had a couple of their songs. Like literally, a couple. They even did a Disney concert, back when all the boy bands were doing them. J Oh, the good ol’ boy band days. Come back (you gotta say it like Rose when Jack is sinking, or maybe it’s another movie, oh well). It’s just a fun song. I love how they’re like a rapping boy band. J Man, our time growing up on Disney was the best! Until next time… Be strong, be happy, and find the joy in your life!

Slam Dunk the Funk- Five

Five bad boys with the power to rock you
Blowing your mind so you gotta get into
Five, what'cha waiting

Four if you wanna
Three (three)
Two (two)
One let's do it

Do you wanna get freaky
When the five of us make one
You gotta push the good vibe on
If you really wanna feel it
Got da flava in my song
But I really need to know

Do you wanna get down
Do you wanna get funky
Do you wanna get down
Get on down

Chorus
Slam dunk da funk, put it up
(If you got that feeling)
Slam dunk da funk, put it up

(Put it up)
Slam dunk da funk, put it up
(If you got that feeling)
Slam dunk da funk
(Put it up)

You gotta shoot, pass, slam baby time to set it off
I'll be up, up away, above the rim and hook a shot
Alley-oop, baby, whoop, there it is and now I gotcha
Three seconds left, it's just enough for me to rock ya
Now check it, how I flip it rock a beat 'cause
I get with it and everybody wants to be the man
With a hey, yippee-yo, yippee four quarter slam
Everybody grab a party and just get on down

Do you wanna get down
Do you wanna get funky
Do you wanna get down
Get on down

Chorus

Well now you wanna know what hits you like a fork lift truck
We got J, AB, Rich, Sean and Scott

Rocking the extra-curricular, ladies love particular
Fellas who knock da meter get the boom shake regular
Five bad boys, honey no, we don't quit

‘Til we hit the rebound sound with a kick
So come on everybody, everybody in tune
As I boom, shake and rock ya body
Gimme room

Clap your hands
Stamp your feet
Push it in, pull it out to the beat

Clap your hands
Stamp your feet
Push it in, pull it out to the beat

Chorus

Changing My Mind

Bloggies!!

I have missed you so! Once again I am sorry for my lack of consistency. Hopefully this post will be fulfilling for you as much as it is for me. :D

As some of you may already know, from facebook, I have started to exercise. I am pretty excited! I have been watching this season of “The Biggest Loser” and decided that it is time for me to change, not only my weight but more importantly my mind. I cannot get healthier and make myself better if I do not first decide to. They even talk about it a little on TBL. I have connected w/ some of them because I feel the same about certain things but I have been rooting for Moses and Kaylee, a father/daughter from Idaho. They are members of the church and are so inspirational! Just looking at their pictures on TBL site made me tear up a bit. Man, I’m so emotional. J Anyways, Kaylee decided to go on the show to help her dad make the life change as well as make the change for herself to avoid continuing to follow in the footsteps of so many of her family members. Moses lost 41 lbs in the first week!! Holy cow! The girls from the purple team said that he “lost a kindergartner!” That’s like two bags of rice! Sheesh! Go Moses!

I will NOT be as hardcore as the contestants on TBL are, because I can’t exercise for 6-8 hours a day w/ awesome trainers. Rather, I will take it at my own pace. I have Jillian Michaels “30 Day Shred” DVD and it’s a 20 minute workout. I have decided to alternate it every other day w/ walking/jogging for 30 minutes. I’m working on my diet but it really isn’t much of one. I’m gonna start off w/ portion control and then go from there. My goal is to lose 10 lbs by my birthday so we’ll see how that goes. Ultimately, I want to lose more than 40 lbs to get me back to a weight I have not seen since freshman year of high school! I have been debating whether or not I will take before and after pictures. If I do I am not sure if I will post them. Maybe I’ll take two kinds of pictures, ones that I will use for my own comparison and then one that I don’t mind sharing w/ all of you. I am a lot bigger than most of you think. Seriously.

Here’s to my own personal challenge. J I started on Thursday and have been consistent every day so far. Sundays will be my “day of rest” and then back to it Monday through Saturday. Depending on the frequency of our seeing each other, hopefully you will see a difference (fingers crossed). Oh, and to make sure I keep to it I will be weighing in every week and I will blog the results. Since I didn’t start until Thursday, I won’t weigh in until next Thursday. So expect results that night or Friday.

Today’s song is one that will be on my jogging playlist. J I first heard it back in high school and loved it ever since. If you don’t know who these guys are, I don’t blame you. Their type of music is pretty hardcore and I don’t know if I could handle an entire CD of theirs. But this song really gets me moving. It’s also a song that Dave listens to while snowboarding and Raylene while jogging. J There’s an inside joke to that so if you don’t get it, then we need to hang out more often! Be strong, be happy, and find the joy in your life!

When Worlds Collide- Powerman 5000

What is it really
That's going on here
You've got your system for total control
So is there really anybody out there
Now watch us suffer cause we can't go
What is it really that is in your head
What little life that you had just died
I'm gonna be the one that's takin over
Now this is what it's like when worlds collide

Are you ready to go
Cause I'm ready to go
What you gonna do baby baby
Are you going with me
Cause I'm going with you
It's the end of all time

What is it really that motivates you
The need to fly or this fear to stop
I'll go along for the ride but surprise
When we get there I say 9 of 10 drop
Now who's the light and who is the devil
You can't decide so I'll be your guide
And one by one they will be hand chosen
Now this is what it's like when worlds collide

[chorus]

What is it really when they're fallin over
Everything that you thought is denied
I'm gonna be the one that's takin over
Now this is what it's like when worlds collide